Even when I put myself in front of the camera, I try to hide from it. I’m not good at opening up myself to other people. Which is why this whole “stream of consciousness” blogging thing scares the hell out of me.

It’s liberating. It’s nice to be able to write whatever the hell is on my brain, which is usually a lot. But I’m also opening myself up to people to make snap judgments and leave mean, anonymous comments. And maybe part of this experiment is to try to grow a thicker skin, at least to irrelevant commentary from people who don’t know me in real life.

So I’m not sure where this part of the blog is going. I’ll keep it up until I have a decent enough reason to feel like I should stop.

And as far as that whole “putting myself in front of the camera” awkwardness thing, I’m working on a project with Kallao this weekend that should really challenge me. I’m fucking terrified, but also really curious to see how it turns out. But more on that later. (And don’t worry Mom, in no way does it involve me getting nekked.)

P.S. – I shot this at f1.8 with a +1 filter on. Shallow depth of field? Yes, please.